Nurlan / Russia
“Hello. I’m Nurlan from Russia, st.Petersburg. I’m 20 y.o. I live in muslim family. My dad hitted and humiliated me when I was a child, but he do.it even now. He broke my mom’s nose in front of me and my little sister. He is very dangerous and creepy.
I prefer boys, but there something else..when I look in the mirror I don’t like how I look, I don’t like the hair on my face,body, I hate sport, I don’t have male friends and I use make up. I don’t love myself, but I must live no matter how hard it is for me, I try to live full life as hard as I can.
Of course others ‘normal’ people bullying me in my everyday life. I live in fear. I can’t be myself in My family, I fear and hate my father…but I try to live, we have only one life unfortunately,but it’s scares me so much because then more I live then more I understand that I’m not enjoying my life,it’s not my life it’s.someone else life,I hate myself, I hope that someday I will live the life I always wanted to life in safe place with kind people…”