Brice / Cameroon
In 2012 Brice was living with his mother. One evening, clearly angrily, “They just called me and told me that you are gay! Is that true?” She said. Brice did not reply. His brother, who knew he was gay confirmed it to his mother. That same day she took him to an evangelist to “deliver you from the spirit of homosexuality” she said. That didn’t change Brice, nor did another visit to another religious leader. His mother gave up and said “You have to choose – either change or leave!” Brice didn’t consider this a choice he could make. He always knew he was Gay. “Since you have chosen to be gay, never contact me again!” His mother said. Brice has not spoken to her since. “I’m no longer close to my mother or some of my sisters. Maybe this is the price I have to pay for being gay.”
“I am called Brice, a young man of about 25, born in a christian family, I lived a peaceful life with my sweet and loving mother in the big city of Douala Cameroon in the years 2012. Our life was peaceful, calm and reserve but all changed suddently when two gay friends in my mother’s appartment when she has travelled. This left all the tenant in the knowledge of my hidden homosexual statut. When Mumy came back from the vilage, she was broken and destroyed, and after a good time she asked me if i entered in a witchcraft which i said i don’t know any sorcery. But she still believed my sexual orientation was a result of bad friends and their beliefs, that is how from a mistake i accepted her proposal to be relieve from my possession of homosexual spirit, that were the pastor’s words about the disease to cure. I described as a scene because i was beaten, pushed on the ground and stifled with water so that everybody can testify my delivery. I told her that all was a scene when she asked if i feel free. Her next action was to take me to a priest of our parish who was campaigning on local TV against homosexuality. He said to me God made no gay but if a man accepts himself as gay he is a devil.
Those words were more than what i wanted to hear from a priest, instead, i needed not to be judged but guided. During many days and months, i received ultimatum from my mother and one day she said you can’t imagine how I feel when i know that people are just waiting me to die to take you a scapegoat, i think it is better to change now. Take a look at you and be aware of the decision you have taken because God is not happy with you. But my worst mistake was telling her only God can judge me, I am guilty of no sin, it’s not on my fault because I have not chosen to be gay, I can’t change who i am because it is not on my will, God and only God knows why I am gay.”