Anonymous / Middle East
“Mine isn’t as sever as the others nothing physically happend to me. But I am in mental pain, I am 17 lesbian Arab I won’t share my location just for the sake of my safety. So I’ve been battleing depression since I was 11 I never knew why I was always sad and uncomfortable until I started dating this guy and eventually I realized that he wasn’t my intrest no women are who I love and I feel in love with my best friend being in a Muslim community its hard to talk to people but I thought she’s my best friend she would understand, when I came out to her at the age of 13 (yes I kept it hidden for 2 years) she said that I am sick and I need to go to hell, she never spoke to me ever again and eventually I lost all my friends and my depression grew depper and depper at the age of 14 I tried to commit suicide I saved by my uncle but what followed was not happy my parents locked me up (they never knew that I was neither depressed nor a lesbian) I was grounded for about two year yes I didnt have a phone nor did I hang out with anyone for 2 years as a typical teenager I was devastated I hit rock bottom and until now at my senior year my parents are stick about my hang outs and it my depression is growing inside me but no one knows I didn’t come out to anyone after that and I have issues trusting people I also have a lot of suicidal thought and I became an extremely anti social person, I hope that I’m abel to travel to America for university and find a better more accepting life before it’s too late I want to feel accepted again unfortunately my dad isn’t a big fan of supporting me financially as we last established my existence isn’t really great for him. I hope that I will find a way to be able to pay for my university and be somewhere more accepting I’ve delt with enough mental pain.”
I hope you can escape too, and find a sunny open space where all this terrible weight can be lifted from you.
In a way, this mental pain is more severe than physical pain. The scars From the wounds inflicted on the heart and mind affect everthing. But You can determin to not let it.
Be. Be stronGer. Be strongeSt.