“Guys ….. I live in middle east my life is stable and everything is ok as long as I am on the down low…. The problem that I made a mistake…. I am 31y now, and due to the family and culture pressure I got engaged to a wonderful girl …. Or else I have to tell them am gay which is impossible I was denying the idea and forbid it … but after I reached 30 … I saw all of my peers and friends got there own life married. … children … most of them even the gays ones and I was somehow like am totally wrong and too many question marks about me …. I felt alone … I feared the future … I feared to be old all alone here outcasted who has nothing. … so I met a girl. .. She is incredible. … I am with here but I feel not myself at all … the only reason am with here is reasons I mentioned above … I feel like am stuck. ….. I feel like total selfish. …. On the other hand I can’t get away ..Suppose I want to break up. .. There is no reasonable way to do it unless to go out which is impossible here …. . What to do do it unless to go out which is impossible here …. . What to do”

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