Javi / United States
“I dont owe you my story
Do you put clothes on my back?
Do you put food in my stomach
Are you the one who keeps these lights
on?
No?
I don’t owe you my story.
Are you my therapist?
Are you gonna be there for every
messy, sticky moment of my
healing?
Are you gonna call my name
when my soul flies over my body
and I watch us from the ceiling
of your office
Are you going to call my name
across 6 different dimensions
Javi come back
Javi come back
NO?
Then I don’t owe you my story
Are you my lover?
Will you help me tear down these
walls brick by brick?
Will you be there when the nightmares
come back?
Will you be there when the memories
written on my cell walls putt me
back in time
back to that moment
back to that very same moment
No?
Then I don’t owe you my story
Are you my comrade?
Are you going to confront your
racists father, your racist uncle,
your racist self?
Are you going to smash transphobia
where ever you go?
Are you going to open your mouth
to defend trans people before I have to?
No?
Then I don’t owe you shit
You will not bring Erica back
you will not be there when I
fall apart
You will not be the one to pull me
back from the darkness
I am not a sob story
I am not a tragedy
I am not your inspiration port
I don’t need your permission to exist
I don’t owe you my story
I don’t owe you shit”