“I was born in 1982 in Sarlahi district. Since my family was lower middle class I did not get a chance for good education. I came to Kathmandu at the age of 12. I worked as a house maid. I did not have any clue about my identity. I wondered why I was like this. At the age of 17 my father wanted me to get married. I came from a poor family and was not aware of my identity so I agreed to get married.

I lost my mother at a young age so I had nobody to love me. After my marriage I started working again. After a year of marriage my family and wife started pressuring me. I tried committing suicide. Soon my first child was born. One day I saw a few transgender people. But I was not sure if I was like them.

At the age of 22 I met a person near a temple.  He informed me about LGBTI. His name was Amrit Adhikari and he was working for Blue Diamond Society. I started meeting him everyday. I realized that I was transgender. After meeting several people like me at Blue Diamond Society, my happiness knew no limit. I started changing on a daily basis.

At then when I was 25 years old my second child was born. He was born in Sarlahi and I returned back to Kathmandu.  After coming back I met a friend. His name is  Shankar and I fell in love with him. We started living together. I was happy but my family had started pressurizing me.  I lived with depression for the next five years.

I then realized that it was impossible for me and my wife to live together, because we thought differently. We got divorced and went our separate ways. I got my children’s custody and started taking care of them. I introduced myself as a transgender women and changed my role from their mother to their father. I started counseling them on LGBTI issues from a young age. I started taking them to Blue Diamond Society’s events. My sons have accepted me as their mother and Shankar as their father.

We live as husband and wife, like any other couple. We are happy. It has been eleven years.”